Just to say...

Just to say...this.

Nothing Special.

Today I'm wearing so ugly clothes (like always) and I feel very bad about my body bla bla blah.

I'm listen to

and I feel okey. I'm glad that I cleaned up and I'm better now.

God know what will happen today.

I bought some cornflakes for 3.05 KM 

And I go now...to do anything I want to do now.

and I will NOT go to watch youtube videos of Kyo dancing to Toguro.

Virgo.

I have a crazy need to live in the organised world. That's bad, becouse my room, my papers, my life and my mind are in terrible MESS.

Today.

I.

Will.

Start cleaning up.

While I'm cleaning (When I do that, I do that perfectly, every plastic bottle, every sensitive word) I will listen to

And by the way...Today I won't go to school . Why? Becouse I don't want to go. I will say that I'm very sick.

That's my baby, Kushin. I sleep with it every night! well...I use it to make people feel very uncomfortible in my area. It's great.

Now I can say bye-bye. Bye-Bye.

Enver.

It seems like I have never told you about how much I like mermaids.

So I'm saying it now.

Mermaids are my favorite creatures. I can't help, they are dying. So small I am against all the sea.

And I feel so stupid for being this big in the reality.

Enver is still powerfull, breathing in my mind, keeping me alive. But I'm still not fragile enough to touch it.

I like mermaids. I think that I was one before I was born.

I must keep thinking that way...and someday, maybe, I will understand Enver and feel it even deeper then now.

-don't have inspiration right now to say anything more. bye. -

Somehow Crying...

I can't think about anything now, my mind is killing me again with thoughts I can't stand.

I needed someting to listen while I'm arguing with myself in this sensless fight, couse I will loose anyway and I know that. Looser's feelings are always stronger then the winner's ones.

People don't uderstand...people don't uderstand it...people can't understand it...

There is an mess in my head and only I can find sense in all this -living to be yourself- thing. 

I'm starting to be bored of this stupid conversations with those stupid people. I'm tired.

upturn.

I'm back to myself.

I'm perfectly depressed person.

It's not easy to exist with my mind.

ware...

I can feel that anger.

.

I wish I have never seen Kyo in my life. It's so stupid to have such strong feelings for some singer, for someone Idon't know and you have never met...

That sounds so...girlish....so awfull...and it's so painful for me to be that way.

and I even don't like the way he looks! He is manly. He is manly man! I hate manly men. 

Day of weekness.

I don't know what is with me.

I'm in some kind of romantic mood.That's...just weird. 

I don't like this songs SO much. But they are very easy to listen...

And Kyo with his long hair looks so good. So f*cking good! I'm in so romantic mood that I must use this kind of words. F*ck. Even if he is a little fat for my taste - he is perfection! Or just I see him that way...

I want to be a little less...this way...I'm in love.