Elasmosaurus platyurus

Welcome. I hate this one. 

Elasmosaurus platyurus 
Pronunciation: ee-LAZ-mow-SORE-us PLAT-ee-YOUR-us 

Length: 42 feet (13 meters) 
Weight: Estimated at 2.3 tons (2,100 kg) 
Diet: Meat
Range: North America (Kansas) 
Age: Late Cretaceous, 82 million years ago

What's Real?: This mount is a cast. The original fossils are in the Academy's research collection for study. 

What is it? Elasmosaurus is not a dinosaur. It is a plesiosaur, a marine reptile

I saw it in a book when I was little. That scared crap out of me...I would be very happy to find that picture, but I can't type on Google to find me "Picture of elasmosaurus platyurus with his open mouth full of sharp theets and those evil eyes looking at me from somewhere down there in the sea, with long snake-like neck and that awful green color scientist painted it." 

So, it seems like I will not find that picture.

Creepy.

I'm not in love with this one eighter.

Just to say...

Just to say...this.

Nothing Special.

Today I'm wearing so ugly clothes (like always) and I feel very bad about my body bla bla blah.

I'm listen to

and I feel okey. I'm glad that I cleaned up and I'm better now.

God know what will happen today.

I bought some cornflakes for 3.05 KM 

And I go now...to do anything I want to do now.

and I will NOT go to watch youtube videos of Kyo dancing to Toguro.

Virgo.

I have a crazy need to live in the organised world. That's bad, becouse my room, my papers, my life and my mind are in terrible MESS.

Today.

I.

Will.

Start cleaning up.

While I'm cleaning (When I do that, I do that perfectly, every plastic bottle, every sensitive word) I will listen to

And by the way...Today I won't go to school . Why? Becouse I don't want to go. I will say that I'm very sick.

That's my baby, Kushin. I sleep with it every night! well...I use it to make people feel very uncomfortible in my area. It's great.

Now I can say bye-bye. Bye-Bye.

Enver.

It seems like I have never told you about how much I like mermaids.

So I'm saying it now.

Mermaids are my favorite creatures. I can't help, they are dying. So small I am against all the sea.

And I feel so stupid for being this big in the reality.

Enver is still powerfull, breathing in my mind, keeping me alive. But I'm still not fragile enough to touch it.

I like mermaids. I think that I was one before I was born.

I must keep thinking that way...and someday, maybe, I will understand Enver and feel it even deeper then now.

-don't have inspiration right now to say anything more. bye. -

Somehow Crying...

I can't think about anything now, my mind is killing me again with thoughts I can't stand.

I needed someting to listen while I'm arguing with myself in this sensless fight, couse I will loose anyway and I know that. Looser's feelings are always stronger then the winner's ones.

People don't uderstand...people don't uderstand it...people can't understand it...

There is an mess in my head and only I can find sense in all this -living to be yourself- thing. 

I'm starting to be bored of this stupid conversations with those stupid people. I'm tired.

upturn.

I'm back to myself.

I'm perfectly depressed person.

It's not easy to exist with my mind.

ware...

I can feel that anger.

.

I wish I have never seen Kyo in my life. It's so stupid to have such strong feelings for some singer, for someone Idon't know and you have never met...

That sounds so...girlish....so awfull...and it's so painful for me to be that way.

and I even don't like the way he looks! He is manly. He is manly man! I hate manly men. 

Day of weekness.

I don't know what is with me.

I'm in some kind of romantic mood.That's...just weird. 

I don't like this songs SO much. But they are very easy to listen...

And Kyo with his long hair looks so good. So f*cking good! I'm in so romantic mood that I must use this kind of words. F*ck. Even if he is a little fat for my taste - he is perfection! Or just I see him that way...

I want to be a little less...this way...I'm in love.

~~~whatever

Oke, I can't really describe my feelings with words if that words are not like "Then thinking made me stupid" and my english is not good enough so that make this writting thing even worse.

Poor.

This blog is something very bljaaaaah. wa?

huh, what's actual this days...

First, I heard (and read, and saw)

And I kinda liked it. Yes.

I like this song. It's so perfectly ironic and melodic. Very nice. I just turn on repeating and listen to it for hours.

Then I heard this song. That was good...I like her. Really. I will even write a smile here --> :)

Thank God I'm Pretty.

Third song I heard and third song I liked. Again that kind of melody...Again great lyrics with it. And again I can listen to it for hours and hours without thinking, just "knowing" 

What to say. I can't get this melody out of my head!~ 

I will swallow, I will swallow...yeah yeah, but what? Don't ask if you don't want to sound stupid.

It's like...I discovered something.

Now I go to...don't know, but it will feel good.

~Forth Day

I didn't make it yesterday. And I will ruin it all again today.

But...

Anyway, today is "Moon Day". I'll make it Random. 

Even If I make it Random, I have to drink water. I hate to drink water! water...eeww...gross...five litars every day! But it's better then vinegar, though.

...

I love this couse it riminds me on my childhood. Nothing special, but wahh.

I'm downloading "Digimon - Season 02" right now. I want to have all episodes of that serial! Too bad I couldn't find it dubbed in Serbian or orginal Japanese version, but only English dubbed...Huuh...They changed names!

here it is, from RapidShare:

http://rapidshare.com/files/36563813/201.Enter_Flamedramon.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36566703/202.The_Digiteam_Complete.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36569537/203.A_New_Digitude.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36572365/204.Iron_Vegiemon.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36574979/205.Old_Reliable.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36577737/206.Family_Picnic.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36580219/207.Guardian_Angel.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36582870/208.Ken_s_Secret.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36585475/209.The_Emperor_s_New_Home__1_.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36587969/210.The_Captive_Digimon__2_.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36590181/211.Storm_of_Friendship__3_.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36592621/212.The_Good__the_Bad__and_the_Digi.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36594938/213.His_Master_s_Voice.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36597307/214.The_Samurai_of_Sincerity.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36599480/215.Big_Trouble_in_Little_Edo.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36791593/216.20_000_Digi-Leagues_Under_the_Sea.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36795665/217.Ghost_of_a_Chance.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36799144/218.Run_Yolei_Run__1_.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36801174/219.An_Old_Enemy_Returns__2_.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36802950/220.The_Darkness_Before_Dawn__3_.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36804805/221.The_Crest_of_Kindness__4_.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36807926/222.Davis_Cries_Wolfmon.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36811265/223.Genesis_of_Evil.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/36814694/224.If_I_Had_a_Tail_Hammer.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37054606/225.Spirit_Needle.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37056779/226.United_We_Stand__1_.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37143862/227.Fusion_Confusion__2_.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37145759/228.The_Insect_Master_s_Trap__1_.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37147902/229.Arukenimon_s_Tangled_Web__2_.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37149874/230.Ultimate_Anti-Hero.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37152129/231.Opposites_Attract.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37154307/232.If_I_Only_Had_a_Heart.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37156526/233.A_Chance_Encounter.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37158915/234.Destiny_in_Doubt.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37161303/235.Cody_Takes_a_Stand.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37358196/236.Stone_Soup__1_.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37360884/237.Kyoto_Dragon__2_.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37363559/238.A_Very_Digi_Christmas.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37375861/239.Dramon_Power.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37378008/240.Digimon_World_Tour__1_.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37380185/241.Digimon_World_Tour__2_.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37382434/242.Digimon_World_Tour__3_.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37384781/243.Invasion_of_the_Daemon_Corps.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37387093/244.Dark_Sun__Dark_Spore.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37388655/245.The_Dark_Gate.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37391184/246.Duel_of_the_WarGreymon.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37393582/247.BlackWarGreymon_s_Destiny.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37395786/248.Oikawa_s_Shame__1_.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37398303/249.The_Last_Temptation_of_the_DigiDestined__2_.avi
http://rapidshare.com/files/37400763/250.A_Million_Points_of_Light__3_.avi

When I was little I used to watch it all day long! I even was recording it on video casettes until grew up. Almost nobody has video recorder now :(

I'm now downloading the episode "Kyoto Dragon".

lol Kyoto. Kyoto Dragon.

I don't remember what that episode was about.

By the way, my personal favorite character is the Digimon Kaiser, Ken Ichijouji. Haha, I was in love with him when I was 10.

Even now, I like him the best.  I will kill anyone who say to me that he doesn't exist! *that wasn't joke*

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But I don't like Miyako, and they two got together at the end. -.- 

I think Hikari suits him.

And he got very ugly at the end. -.-

blja.

I also liked Hikari, Takeru and Daisuke. And that Iori was nice, but I don't really can remember him.

But why did English translators changed names? Kari or Yolei, the names don't sounds much more English then the orginal ones.

And I findvoices and music much MUCH better in Japanese version.

.

Oke, I go now. I go to EAT. 

bye.

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UPDATE (16:10):

Yeaa! I found torrent for Japanese version!

This day is getting better and better

--> http://www.mininova.org/tor/2531293

~Third Day

Yeah, Third Day, called "Water and Vinegar Day".

Very unpleasant day. I don't think I'm strong enought to go through this...

but I will try.

>starting to hate vinegar from the bottom of my heart<

It eats me from within.

"Sarajevsko KISELJAK - Vrelo park- (1891)"

1.5l

~Second Day

Today is the Second Day. I like to call it BlackBerry Day.

I have to do it. I can do it. I will do it!

BlackBerry. 

~First Day

I like numbers 7 and 11. I have allways liked 7 and 11.

So...

Today is the First Day. 

I feel pretty bad couse I can't think. My brain is empty -...what I wanted to say?

All I know is...Today is the First Day.

Music...

some of my very favorite songs.

my friend told me about this song. The first time I heard it I felt strange, in the way I like it. Huh.. Death is the road to awe? I'm not sure I understand what the composer wanted to say.

I'm not afraid of death. I'm afraid of life.

I still love this song. And this video have lyrics on it! Even I can speak Japanese now (not very good, but oke) I like when I find translation which band made by themself. This song means much to me. But I just found it on YouTube and put it here without watching couse I'm angry on their singer.

I will not take a look at it or even hear it. I will NOT.  

But I have a really nice mamories about this song. And I love it all, screaming, growling, silent singing, dying, crying...I miss some parts of this song that are cutted couse it was too long for PV.

btw. I love Uroboros.

Mayumi Itsuwa's songs are so melanholic...just like the way I am. Even if I like more comlicated lyrics the melody get me. I like all her songs I have heard.

I can understand and feel every melody of it.

Ribaibaru, Aikagi, Dakishimete, and all other that I have no time to write down now. METAL CORE!

One of my favorite songs of all time. Again Hardcore, ne?

I feel like this the most of the time. This song is like my view of world in the moments of madness expressed in music. 

It was raining and I was standing outside, damn lonely and crying. I was looking at the river and was listening to this song. I kinda liked that feeling couse it was really artistic. hmm...I didn't like that feeling back then, but I like thinking of it now.

Doesn't Bjork's hair look nice on that photo? Don't know why, I think it's beautiful.

I heard this song on TV long time ago. Now it reminds me on that time and all. I like how he says the word "tragedy".  I don't know anything about Royksopp (did I write that name right?), but that's not important. I like the feeling I have when I listen to this song.

That's not all but...Ahh... It's late.

22:58h Well, not so late, but I like to sleep.

bye-bye..........

P.S. I wish I could...I wish I could say what I wanted to say.

Growth

I didn't post so much on this blog. I don't like to have anything I must to do.

So...

My story will be a little longer this time

I have to say  7  things about time I've been trought and about stupid little things that have no real meaning.

1.   First of all - I have started to admire a Kyo (singer of Dir en grey) a way too much. I was pretty insane about that for 5 months or whatever and he disappointed me few days ago.  I have been so depressed becouse of that, it was an agony. I'm just a person with a strong feeling and what I hate the most is disappointment and that feeling of inability to do anything about that. I will write about this later, now I'm too messed up.

2.   I have found my old diary a few days ago. It scares me. I'm scaring me. I love it.

3.   I'm still a child. But I'm a resentful. I made a little butterfly out of nothing. But it's broken so I don't have anything to play with it. I feel like I'm becoming evil becouse of that. Of course, I still have my Kyo doll (I really have one), but you know...I can't play with it couse I thew it on the top of a big closet.

4.   I'm in love with myself. I like to watch myself when I'm searching things I have lost or when I'm looking from my window at the outside world. When I find new music that I like I look so happy like I'm freak. Maybe I am freak? I don't really care about the way world is looking at me.

5.   My gymnophobia is really killing me. I don't know how to live with it anymore. That's actually one of my biggest problem and my favorite side of me. I don't want to talk about other problems from reality couse I don't want this blog to be something like my old diary. It's scary.

6.   I got very rich in Pet Society on FaceBook. That's very very important. ahh. What I do with my time is really criminal. Did I already say how much I love cartoons? Cartoons are something I really like. Anime, Disney... And I'm pretty crazy about clothes. Oke, I love anything I can see as beautiful.

7.   Diet. This time is gonna be the last time.

nista.

Let me be alone now...let me cry...there are no words I want to hear now. There's nothing that can help me now.

Dying in front of a mirror.And already dead.

I'm feeling so fat,so fat,so fat........it will destroy me.

I can't.....wahh...I can't live,I can't think,I can't love anymore.

I'm so fat...and I will never be beautiful. All dieting...senseless at the end...

there is no point of eating discorders,even with all that stuff I will not loose any weight...

I hate everything about me.

I'm dying.I love chocolate milk.

7. month (july)

hmm...

yeah, I like poetry. I like art. Anything can be beautiful, anything can be art.

I'm reading to some Márquez's book. Again. For the 99. time.

This is really good book, one of my favorites. I like his style, I like that atmosphere I'm finding in his words. I would write more about it, but I'm not very good in English.

nothing more to say. bye.